With Bliss...

I wrote those poems...
Few years back.
Just to let myself believed.
They fit them both.
But my vibrant words in mind...
Went blurred in described.
With U now...
My intense emotions.
Burning up with desire...
To have U, just be mine.
And the only words i know.
Is ur name.
Blazing in my heart..
With BLISS.


- Can I make u mine?!? =)

I'm at war...

Last nite...
Somewhere in the middle of my dreams.
I heard my subconscious mind spoken...
" for once in ur damn life, will u plz make a stand and fight the love u have for someone" Awakened...
Only then I realized I'm at war wd myself =)

The Mosque

The biggest Mosque I've seen and been...
With the widest carpet in the world.

Habitación en Roma

- I've watched dz movie but only the first half hour...
- So sweet... a memorable love story =)
- Looking forward to watch the whole movie when i got home =)
- Love the song - LOVING STRANGERS
- And for sure the morality-conscious people will go frantic bwt dz film!!!

Phone Mode =)

Just with ur voice...
I feel ok.
Loosened from the past...
That grips me.
Strangers in a way...
But we never run out of words.
Talking will not put on hold.
If we could just be in that 'mode' forever and a day.
I doubt...
Coz someone else may hold ur heart.
U belong to another world.
Where mine never exist.
But behind those spoken words.
I hope u'll see...
In between the story we laughed about.
The most sincere feelings I have...
Is how much I care about U.


- pansinin mo nman ako plz =)

Only Be A Tree

Just one leaf...
Clinging on the branch.
When all the other leaves was gone.
Perhaps one by one...
Strong winds knocked them down.
A gentle blow to make it fall...
And then there will only be a tree.
Rooted on earth...
Seeking flow.
While waiting for the spring to come.
It's time to sort things out right ...
Until covered again with pleasure.
That will lasts any seasons.


- hopeful mode =)

Sailing...

Who could say I'm walking in a lonely deserted road... When I'm sailing anyway under the sun along with the wind and tide. A place I'd rather be than at someone's arm whom I don't care to love.

Waves and Shore

Earlier this quite fine Morning...
Before I started my work.
I stood near the glass door ...
Over looking the Red Sea.
Is it so amazing and relaxing...
To watched the waves in motion.
Because no matter how far the waves traveled.
It keeps coming back to kiss the same shore.

Wrapped By Ur Arms

Rest Ur mind.
Be at peace.
U have me...
I'll stay.
I won't love another.
But only U.
There is no safest place to go.
Rather than to be...
Wrapped by Ur arms, my love.

Torture

I'm anxious...
Lying on my bed.
Reckoning.
About this fire inside...
Consuming me completely.
I need to release...
Before it detonate.
So full.
My mouth is in drought...
Thirsty of your sweet breathe.
I want to dive...
In the pool of Ur divine core.
Heat on my palms...
Want a soft landing.
How could I bridge the gap between us?
U're miles a way to be touch.
Auugh torture.

Self Note ( Happy Birthday, AG!)

It's been 31 years from now...
Since my beloved Nanay Carnay gave birth to me.
I've written a poem before about being frantic of getting old alone...
Five years ago, I think.
But I'm glad I did outgrown my fears.
Coz here I am alone.
Confided from this four corner of the house.
My eyes keep watching...
As the cursor blink from my laptop screen.
When everybody was away...
Celebrating the most important day of Ramadan.
My big day, is the eid eve for Muslims.
Looking back..
I can't figure out from myself...
Those changes I had gone thru.
It seems I'm still the kid that runs around...
Playing under the pouring rain.
Flying a kite on a summer vacation...
Collecting "tanzan" like as the boys toy.
Well, my age doesn't show on my face...
As the others say =)
And despite the aches that I've been endured...
Life is good for me to enjoy!

-Write U A Song-

- If I was given a chance...
- Perhaps... every single day of the year... my whole life, wanna sing this to U!

Swatch +

... jzt got my new swatch watch =)

basta, I care...

I don't care...
Who U are.
What U are.
All I care...
Is I wanna take care of U!

- hehehe plz do take care of me too! =)

I found a diary underneath the tree...

Can I come over?
And have a peace of mind.
This mysterious sad music...
Gives me shit.
And is killing me!


- But I love to play this song again and again...
- At 10 years old, I started hearing this song, now, I'm 30+...
still it never fails to give me goose bumps!
- Unrequited love was the most painful feeling you've ever felt =)
- And so... this is the story goes.
- Hey, tnx David Gates... U fueled my sadness! =)

Another Summer Time With AZ

July 05, 2010
04:40pm

It’s just another summer time with Abdullah…
His family left for Switzerland today.
The only reason I knew why he can’t travel with them was…
He always get sick staying long... out of his home – Jeddah =)

It was really a lazy afternoon when everybody emptied the house … but I can’t figured out what triggers my indolent. Perhaps this… terrible running nose and it is killing me!
I took time working in the kitchen table…
When Abdullah came to joined me, sat next to me.
And handed me a paper with his own hand writing though he never learned how to write.
He said it was some kind of his important documents that needed to be keep by me…
So I play along and put it on my pocket… and I said, “promise I’ll read it as soon as I finish my work”
He just smiled… a very innocent smile.
Well, I assumed he always wanted to be an office-boy =) working with his own company like his baba.
At this time of his age… probably he’s somewhere in the US or EU now earning a master's degree.

He watched me silently while I was folding the kitchen towels…
And when the third time I glanced his way…
I caught his sleepy eyes…
I asked him to manage a nap… but he refused to.
And told me he wanted to stay...
He dozed off right on the chair... with his arms folded in his chest.
Looking at him… thoughts started running on my head.
Wish I could build my own world like his world…
That pain… anger… lies… will never reside...
Not like in a normal grown up world =)
But maybe he’s actually experiencing “hurts” too but not as deeply with my case...
That it could be easily vanished by a single piece of candy or a trip to "malahi".
Or even by just playing his favorite DISNEY MUSIC scores.


My thinkings cut-short automatically as I heard the door bell rung.
And made Abdullah stirred up...

I'm learning from him.
Why not try to adopt his ways...
But not...his tantrums =)
Anyway, his very special character lighten up my burdens in some ways =)

The truth behind my every smile...

My eyes smile with my heart...
Everytime I have a glimpsed of U.

My hands touch with my heart...
Try to get closer to me.

My lips speak with my heart...
Yearned to be sealed by your kiss.

And I can't stop my heart...
From falling deeper for U!

Half Light

Just want to lay down...
In the shore.
And buried myself...
Waist down.
Will U lay with me...
Near half light?
All we have to do.
Is wait for the night.
Count every stars that appear...
Up above.
As we locked our hands.
Forget the world...
The only audible sounds...
Were Ur breathe and mine.
And the gentle breaking of waves...
Along the rocks.

As I Care As Much

I may not be the perfect specimen for U.
But I have a...
TONGUE that speak only U.
FINGERS that touch nobody but U.
And a HEART that beats forever with U.

S C A R

... and so my scar start to fade.
As the days goes by.
But the faded color...
Become intense.
When my emotions arouse.

MITTENS - the cappuccino-colored cat!

The kitten is now a cat that sleep on his back.
I'm glad there is no rat for him to catch.
And eat it with all his might!
That's why... he only scratch the couch =)

Sand Storm

Dz got to be my first time since I arrived in Jeddah...
A camera captured sand storm! hehehe malau nga lng =)