I found a diary underneath the tree...

Can I come over?
And have a peace of mind.
This mysterious sad music...
Gives me shit.
And is killing me!


- But I love to play this song again and again...
- At 10 years old, I started hearing this song, now, I'm 30+...
still it never fails to give me goose bumps!
- Unrequited love was the most painful feeling you've ever felt =)
- And so... this is the story goes.
- Hey, tnx David Gates... U fueled my sadness! =)

Another Summer Time With AZ

July 05, 2010
04:40pm

It’s just another summer time with Abdullah…
His family left for Switzerland today.
The only reason I knew why he can’t travel with them was…
He always get sick staying long... out of his home – Jeddah =)

It was really a lazy afternoon when everybody emptied the house … but I can’t figured out what triggers my indolent. Perhaps this… terrible running nose and it is killing me!
I took time working in the kitchen table…
When Abdullah came to joined me, sat next to me.
And handed me a paper with his own hand writing though he never learned how to write.
He said it was some kind of his important documents that needed to be keep by me…
So I play along and put it on my pocket… and I said, “promise I’ll read it as soon as I finish my work”
He just smiled… a very innocent smile.
Well, I assumed he always wanted to be an office-boy =) working with his own company like his baba.
At this time of his age… probably he’s somewhere in the US or EU now earning a master's degree.

He watched me silently while I was folding the kitchen towels…
And when the third time I glanced his way…
I caught his sleepy eyes…
I asked him to manage a nap… but he refused to.
And told me he wanted to stay...
He dozed off right on the chair... with his arms folded in his chest.
Looking at him… thoughts started running on my head.
Wish I could build my own world like his world…
That pain… anger… lies… will never reside...
Not like in a normal grown up world =)
But maybe he’s actually experiencing “hurts” too but not as deeply with my case...
That it could be easily vanished by a single piece of candy or a trip to "malahi".
Or even by just playing his favorite DISNEY MUSIC scores.


My thinkings cut-short automatically as I heard the door bell rung.
And made Abdullah stirred up...

I'm learning from him.
Why not try to adopt his ways...
But not...his tantrums =)
Anyway, his very special character lighten up my burdens in some ways =)